Monday, May 10, 2010

Now What?

Okay, so it's been a week. I've been taking the medication as the Dr. prescribed. I have noticed that I am sleeping better. I have noticed a few of the side effects, like the pain in my stomach. Yes it does give you stomach cramps. Tingling in my feet, kind of like you have been sitting on them for a long time. I'm also noticing congestion, but I could actually be getting an honest to goodness cold. Other than that, nothing. I'm still tired all the time. My body still aches. Oh I do feel a bit more confused. Yeah like I really need that! I want to know for sure if this is what I have. I don't like not knowing. If I have it then I can logically work on dealing with it. If I don't then I can work on figuring out what is wrong. I'm a logical person. This is not logical. No known cause. No known cure. No known definitive diagnostic test. I think that's why it has always sounded so crazy to me. But this pain and fatigue I'm feeling is not crazy. It's real. The hazy cluttered thinking. That's real. The pressure in my face and head, also real. I know it's not psychosomatic. If it were I would have willed it away ages ago.

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