Taking over....

It's been a bad week. I'm starting to let this take over my life. I'm living my life like I already have a diagnosis. I think about it all the time now. I never realized that I was in pain all the time. It is all the time. I have always just ignored it. Right now I'm trying to remember when and where I feel the pain so that I can tell the Dr. the next time I go, so instead of dismissing the pain I'm taking note of it. It's getting to me. It's very overwhelming. At work, my shoulders, head, face, back and hands hurt. At home again it's my head, back and then my legs. I'm exhausted and confused most days. It's awful. I think I need a break. For the rest of the week, I'm not going to think about the fact that this might be my life. I'm just going to do what I've always have done. Dismiss the pain and go on. That's what they do with Cognitive Therapy anyway. Teach you to just deal with the pain. I think I've already learned how to do that. It's just pain, it won't kill you! No it just makes you miserable. I'm tired of being miserable. I'm ready to fight!